Back on the Rollercoaster

So a few weeks back, I thought I had noticed some spotting in my underwear.  I was thinking, "Bummer, here's my period." but it never progressed past the two spots I first noticed in my underwear.  I started getting excited.  I started feeling crummy (slight nausea, fatigue, and occasional headaches) which made me super hopeful.  I took a pregnancy test, and it was negative.  I figured I had tested too early. I was convinced I was pregnant (like 75% convinced, the other 25% was telling myself not to get too hopeful). I waited for a week, and took another one.  Still negative.  Now I was only 50% convinced.  I waited another week.  Negative.

So now I was back to being cynical and apathetic about it.  I told myself I wasn't pregnant.  I told myself that if I kept up in that vein, not only would I stress myself out (during this three week span, my anxiety levels were pretty high (which might explain the nausea)), that I would drive myself crazy and have a phantom pregnancy.  So I took myself in my hand, gave myself a stern talking to and invested in some tension relieving essential oils (a mix of wintergreen, basil, chamomile, and rosemary).

Last Friday, I got my period.  It wasn't the same as my period has been.  My periods of late have been a reasonably heavy flow, and bright red.  This one was light and brown, and just not all that healthy seeming.  So I am concerned that I have been slacking off too much this past cycle. I haven't been exercising as much, and I have been more lenient in the reduction of sugar intake.  So I am thinking my hormones have been slacking off too.  A poor lining is a side effect of hormonal imbalance, so I am vowing to myself that I need to get my energy level back up and focus on exercising again.  I am already trying to eat better, so after I get done treating myself (I allow a sugar splurge during my period) I am going to work on resisting the temptation of sugar.

I am going to try and relax and not worry about the future so much.  I am back on the roller coaster, let's see how many ups and downs this ride will have.

All Clear!

So I got all the results back from my blood work and HSG test and according to my doctor everything looks fine!  (*cue mini celebration*) I looked over all my results and everything is in the normal range (because, y'know I'm a doctor (not)) and according to the x-ray tech the dye from the HSG flowed well, so there is no blockage.

I am super relieved!  So far, with the testing we've done, it looks like we are just dealing with my PCOS, so I am going to be kicking up my charting a notch.  If we better know when I'm ovulating, then we might just get lucky. :)

Also, we are still waiting for my husband's results, so maybe its a combination of factors.  We are expecting his results by the end of the week.

So far, this is good news.  So we are going to try for the next couple of months, and then we'll go back to the doctor and re-evaluate.  The next step with probably be something like Clomid to encourage (better) ovulation.  So fingers crossed!

Let the Testing Begin!

So I got my period, which means it is time for testing ... fun fun.  This morning I want in for a fasting blood draw in which they are testing blood sugar and hormone levels.  I also peed in a cup (TMI?) but I'm not sure what that was for (I am assuming sugar or something).  I have an hysterosalpingography (HSG) test scheduled for next week.  That is a dye test that check to see if my fallopian tubes are clear.  From what I here, it's an uncomfortable test and I am not exactly looking forward to it.  In fact, I am kind of terrified of the results.

Scarred tubes have been one of my biggest fears in trying to get pregnant.  I have had abdominal surgery/infection before and it is a possibility that my tubes could be blocked. I am afraid that the results are going to confirm this, and that there is nothing I am going to be able to do.  I have been feeling less that perfect lately, like I am the thing that is holding my husband back from his goals in life, and if I get confirmation of this, I might (high probability) be a huge mess.  

So wish me luck.